JessicaEsch’s Weblog

What a great vacation… So here are my highlights of the last  two days!

Friday, when I got back into town we packed up our cooler and made our way down town to First Ave to camp out for the Fireworks, arriving around 5 o’clock we picked our spot and set up camp… As friends started to join in we kept each other entertained with playing a few card games, telling stories and  talking about what we will do next year…

I am a BIG Big fan of Fireworks! I cant even Begin to tell you how excited I get about them and I have been this way since I was a little girl.

       oooh, ahhhh….

How can you not SMILE so big when you see that

And this is the West Side Gang! Don’t I have Great looking Friends?!?!!???!!!

I have no Idea why I get so crazy when I see Kenny Chesney, But I get totally Star Struck! Last Friday night was about the 4th time I have gotten to see him I think… Three of those times have been at Country USA and the other was his concert in Green Bay WI a few years back with one of my greatest friends. She had gotten me the tickets for my Birthday.

Well, the concert was amazing as always, He actually went on, On time… That never happens at C-Usa when you are the headliner… He was playing for about 45min when we felt a few drops fall upon our tipsy little heads. As a few people started to clear out from the smallest little drops of rain we pushed ourselves a little closer to VIP. Only in hopes to get just a little closer so we wouldn’t have to watch the monitors as he jumped around the stage performing with so much energy you couldn’t help but scream. Suddenly, out of nowhere the freaking sky opened up and dumped the ocean on our heads… As a practical joke would happen. Seriously From head to toe, from outside clothing to the bone. Soaked… No time to run, to time to hide, cameras, phones, all electronics soaked through… And as he stopped singing and yelled goodnight he got rushed of the stage and that was it!

I would love to tell you I had the chance to get an after shot of how we looked but there was no chance of pulling out my camera for one last photo.

But here is a few as we sat in Row 4 waiting for Kenny to come sing to me

Allison, Witte, Me and Katie

Just hanging out with my girls waiting…

Me, Katie and Dinger

So this is my third year that I go home this particular week since I moved here to attend a event that I have went to for many years wile I lived in Appleton Wisconsin… It is called Country USA and it is the Largest Country music festival in the world to date! How funny is that I Live in Nashville, Tn. Music City Capital,  but I go back to Wisconsin for a GREAT Country music festival!

Well, this year I am sad to say that a work trip made me miss out on the two opening nights missing out on Sugerland Wednesday night and Dirks Bentley tonight ;( I had a freaking Break down when I found out about this a month ago!!! But, I get into Wisconsin tomorrow and I get to see the man of my dreams, The one over the years I have been able to see a few times, KENNY CHESNEY!!! I want to Marry this man… I just cant believe that he is gay and I am waaaaayyyyy better the Blond Chic he accidentally married and the fact that he is shorter then me does not even bother me… I tell you, I think its True Love!

So anyways picture to follow because I am soooo ecxcited! Ill let you know how fast Kenny falls for me as soon as I decide how I will get is attention in a crowd of thousands.

For as long as I can remember music has been the most favorite thing in my life, may it be singing to it, dancing to it, or just simply listening to it!

In church I have found that even as a little girl I would get completely lost in worship services… When I can just let go and just sing my heart out to God brings me the most Joy that I could ever feel.

Problem is I have a really hard time letting every other thought go when I am trying to worship.

Are you ready some serious honesty about to explode….

I am completely blown away when I feel like we are in an amazing worship service and people cant even CLAP  to the songs, Let alone raise their hands to a song that sings “Here I am tempted and trialled”…

 I’m like really??? This is probably your one chance a week you take to just completely pour your heart out and you cant even Let Go for 15min and just WORSHIP! Put your freaking Coffee cup down for two seconds and give the Lord a hand Clap!

Then the other thing that goes through my mind is what are other people saying about me?

Well, why on earth do I care?

I don’t think I am gonna to get to Heaven and God is going to say “Hey, did ya know people were talking about you when you raised your hands to me on Sunday?” 

I’m gonna go out on a limb here and say ah, NO!

So here is my challenge, Whats holding you back from giving God what he deserves in worship??? I mean its once a week, And you can close your eyes and you will forget that everyone will turn around and look at you for worshiping God in Church

Everyday that I remember I try to start it out with 3 worship songs. Let me tell you how much better my day goes when I do that!

” You turned my wailing into DANCING; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with JOY, that my heart may SING to you and not be silent. O LORD my God, I will give you thanks forever.”

and so it is… I’m 27 years old and I decided that it is time to start a family!

His name is Samuel Maximise Esch AKA ‘Sammy Mac” I started the adoption process over a month ago and as of last Sunday I was granted being a mom.

I’m not gonna lie, I did freak out a little bit this week when I thought about how much of my freedom I am giving up…. Am I ready for this I questioned??? I mean, I have to come home every night now… Not that I make it a habit of not coming home but its just the fact of knowing that I HAVE too now!

But I’m ready to settle down and since I am not 30 yet it is not time for kids nor the money… ( little info I have said that If I hit 30 and no sign of a husband, I will become a single mom… I love kids)

So here is info on Sammy Mac, He was rescued from a pound and given a home on a farm by a lady that rescues border collies. She got him on new years eve and he was about 6 week old… he is now about 7months old we will say he will be 8months on July 15th. he is a little bit in his terrible 2’s… he likes to get into things when you are not looking!!! But he is learning fast… he already Fully understands Sit… Just depends if he wants to listen to me or not!

You would say he looks a little like is cousin Micky man aka Jenni Catrons son… Well there is a reason for this… I stuck with the same family of dog because

1 Micky is a great dog and so good

2 I needed the cousins to get along

3 Because who knows when I will need a babysitter

So there you go, I’m a mommy, and so far so good, and I think he loves me…

For as long as I can remember I have always wanted to “Rework or Fix Things”

In high school I stared taring apart clothes and tried to re design them into something “cooler”… I did manage to make some cool jeans but I seen the idea on a friend and just worked it a little different.

Later on that summer at my job up North (Elcho Ice Cream Shoppe, Elcho Wis.) I was known for fixing things when they stopped working… So much that my boss made me a tool box and put my name on it ( Handy Hilda ) I still have this tool box and over the years it has been VERY handy.

I had to help fix an old beater car running the summer I turned 16 if I wanted a car to drive, So I quickly learned small things about cars… On my 3rd car, a lot of things kept going wrong so I learned what sounds meant what and can usually detect what is wrong with cars now. I am not that girl you can take advantage of in Firestone!!! I will test you!

In college I learned its not cool to always do it for yourself, that guys don’t always like it when you act so tough and like you can take care of yourself… So over the years I have slowly learned to ask for help when It comes to boys in my life… Unfortunately in this place in my life I don’t exactly have “handy men” in my life for guy friends. ( So why do I have so many of them) Hmmm… JK

Well here is where it gets real frustrating, When I need help, I ask now and when I cant get the help I need, I get soooo upset… I hate it when I cant “JUST FIX IT” I need it to be better now, Right now…

So today my phone started acting up, when I went in to get help it turned out that it was my fault because I didn’t BACKUP my phone on my computer! NEW FLASH~ I don’t know how to backup anything!!! I don’t even know what that means!!! OK, maybe that’s a little extreme! But Are you freaking kidding me… I don’t know what to do with all that… So they tell me that they will call me and walk me through it, that’s just great!!! OK, so here we go. Well the Long and short of it is that at 8pm they finally tell me they will send me a new phone and it will be in on Thur… yet, if they had made this AMAZing decision at 2pm when I first went in, I would have had a new phone by tomorrow. All this, if they had all just listened to me when I said IT IS NOT WORKING!!! I get it, I’m a stupid girl that hardly knows how to use my computer but the fact of the matter is I have brought my Blackberry Pearl in 2 times now in 2 months…That should tell you I’m not crazy! Plus, Isn’t that what they are there for… TO HELP???

Here is the other thing, I get so upset and frustrated that I cried and as most of you would know I don’t really cry…

I cry in amazing worship, Anything sad with kids, saying goodbyes that really tug at the heart and maybe death… The only other thing is when I cant get something Fixed or done and Frustration sets in!

I wanted to throw myself on the ground kicking and screaming I was so upset over this stupid little thing that my phone is not working as well as I would like it too.

Maybe this is my punishment for not taking my solitude time yesterday or today… Well, I tried yesterday but every time I tried I realized I was still doing something else at the same time.. Hmm. So I said i did it as I climbed into bed but i don’t think that really counts and now tonight I missed out on working out time and my solitude time!!

My last name is ESCH

Its German

I love it, I feel like it is very fitting to me and wish my mom would have thought more on my first name and my heritage when she named me

I even think that I want to keep it when I get married

But some how a conversation came up this weekend saying that is sounded “Porn Star’ish”

So here is a little info I dug up for fellow friends wondering about my last name

~habitational name from any of several places named ESCH from the Old High German asc’ Ash’ or topographic name for someone who lived near a Prominent ash tree.

~ 27-51 Esch families live in MI, IL, OH, PA

~10-16 live in OR, MN, IA, WI, Ny

I only know of some in IA, WI, MN, I think…

So maybe I should start finding more of my long lost family

PS little known fact ~ Had I gotten married 2 years ago my last name would have been SPICE, How’s that for a porn star name… Thank you Jesus for not letting that happen

Sara, Me and Randi in Feb.

When I was 14 I started babysitting for these two girls… they were 3 and 3 weeks old the first night I watched them… I remember how scared I was, Randi was so small, I was afraid I was going to break her. Over the next 3 years I had them more then their parents did. No LIE! They went to church with us they did anything I did, they became a big part of my family. Even to the point of Randi got to come to Nashville with my Mom and Jenni one year to move Jen back to College. Well these girls are now 16 and 13 and man I feel old! 13 years later and they are still a big part of my life, in fact Randi wants to come live with me when she turns 18 and I would gladly take her… She will always be my baby!

So, I have always loved kids and I am so lucky to get to watch these 3 little boys that on any given weekend asked I am willing to give my night to spending some quality time playing and learning with these guys… You would know them as the Wilson Boys… By far the most well behaved boys I have ever babysat.

This is us playing Basket Ball, And Jett didn’t even make me play on my knees and I think he still won.

This is Brewer, he loves the tickle monster as I am getting him ready for bed.

This is after Popsicle time, I always bring a special treat and something else new and fun to play with, it has sorta turned into a game, Gage knows he can go in my bag and find something fun to play with. Kinda like Marry Poppins bag!

The other best part about these boys is I have started Date night with them… I took them out for pizza and a movie on a Friday night. So much fun… And yes I paid! Ha ha

By far the best “Date” I have been on in a long time… Yes, that is what a single 27 yr. old Girl does on her weekends when finding the right guy to date is just not in her sights yet. Picky you say? maybe But I would rather put quality time into a 7,4, and 2 yr. old then time into someone that is not right for me…

So this my Friends is ”Team Rob!”

Are you ready to hang? We Bike hard and fast and will put anyone to the challenge

I think we are officially apart of ”Team Shelby Bottom Gang” now too, so I’ll keep you posted on that and Pictures to follow

I have just committed myself to a 5 minute Silence challenge with @jarrodmorris each day this week to go along with Pete’s massage this week… I am horrible at this, I am never silent, even when I try my mind is screaming to get out.

So who’s in with us…

We are holding each other accountable, who else needs help with this!

 Let me know how it goes!